J'envie

I wish that wishing was enough to make someone a good person.

Et je suis ici, encore.

Incredibly tired. Linds thinks that I have an iron deficiency. She has set out some daily vitamin and mineral pills for me, in a place that I will notice, so that I will remember to take them. I'm making at least a small effort to increase my health, but I think I will need to focus on my mental health before my physical health. In particular, my memory.

My short-term memory has been horrible lately. Today I was able to recall the name of a character in a book that I have not read for at least seven years, but I cannot remember if the vitamin supplements I consumed were after yesterday's or today's breakfast.

I feel like overall I am deteriorating.
So is my bank account.

I need something financially beneficial to happen in my life so I can continue to feed myself.

I am twenty years old and I am starting to get white hair.
What the hell is going on?

Je regrette que les vœux ne soient pas assez.