With A Little Help From My Friends

These past...what's today, Thursday? These past four or so days have been incredibly relaxing.

The semester ended last week, and until I start Summer A classes on Monday, I really only have to concern myself with the few shifts I work at the restaurant.

Consequently, I have spent much of this week so far in a blaze of smoke. Certainly it's not healthy, nor am I getting much of anything accomplished, but it's been a long time since I could sleep until 1 p.m. and have no errands to run, or anything else to do, for that matter. It feels amazing.

Also, getting high with a little help from my friends has provided me with ample opportunity to remember what it's like to laugh regularly and enjoy myself and my company, instead of working and having my heart clenched by anger and cynicism. It's incredible how much working at a place you despise can affect your mood and, following that, your personal life.

I've also been able to cloud my mind enough to prevent myself from thinking about Mr. Amazing. My second dating failure since Joe, although neither the dating nor the failure would occupy my thoughts so much with anyone else as they do with him. I was glad when all the bullshit and drama with the asshole was over, I am considerably better off without all that. But Mr. Amazing is exactly that - he's gorgeous, funny, smart, gentlemanly, considerate, caring, and way too good to be true. Of course he doesn't want a relationship right now. I'm already asking for too much, right?

Since when did it kill people to chill out and let things figure themselves out, see where things went instead of forcing them down a certain path?

In general I think Americans have become too impatient, ironically contradicting our already apparent laziness. We've forgotten how to wind down at the end of the day, how to leave work trouble at work, and how to enjoy life at a natural pace. But when action should be taken in life, when it's actually required for a situation, we puss out and "get to it later." What an awful mindset.

Do you know what's on my agenda today?
A job interview, then ice cream by the pool with a great friend.

Honestly, I am extremely satisfied with my to-do list. I don't need to cram more than 24 hours of activity into less than 10 waking hours of my day, and I'm balancing the productive with the relaxing. I don't plan on overworking myself on my few days off from responsibility.