Let's Get Physical

What the hell am I getting myself into?

I'm not sure why I can let some things go so easily and other things I struggle to hold on to.

I feel like my need to know every aspect of my social life's interactions holds me back sometimes, from being happier and more satisfied. I'm starting to wonder if having the knowledge I desire is really worth the frustration and disappointment it often brings.

So, where do I stand now?
Alone?
Supported?

Yesterday I allowed myself to cry, on the grounds that it is the last time I ever will. And I will hold myself to that.

And here I find myself waiting for a phone call that I probably will never receive, and I can't explain why, because I know that tomorrow none of this will matter.

I need to stop doing this, this fighting with myself. And I need to stop now.

I haven't been to the gym in nearly a week, and today I think I have the energy to displace my strife.