Insomnia nervosa

Sometimes I think I am going crazy.

There are so many thoughts aswarm in my mind and there's only one person who can put them at rest but he seems either to not get that or to not care.

I've lost so much sleep. I guess I usually still attain the average number of hours of sleep per night, but that's just not normal for me, personally. I go to bed at 12, 1 a.m. and find myself wide awake at 6, 7 a.m. but not a restful wide awake. I'm a dragging, zombie-like state of what can barely be called consciousness. It's affecting my behavior. It's affecting my personality. It's affecting my relationships and interactions with other people.

I'm thinking of resorting to Xanax just to relieve some anxiety so hopefully I can sleep peacefully.

I feel like I'm breaking apart.
I don't think I've ever been this scared for myself.